Alan Richard Sturgeon

This site is dedicated to our beautiful son Alan Richard Sturgeon born sleeping on 28th July 2006 at 02.30 in Liverpool Womens Hospital. Alan grew his wings and became an angel due to placental abruption and pre-esclampsia. He has dark brown hair, eyelashes that any women would pay for!!!! our famous Robbo nut nose and was approx 1ft long. All the nurses called him Peter Crouch. Alan was 5lb 13oz. He was born at 38weeks 1 day gestation. Alan was buried on 10th August 2006, which was his due date.


Angel Alan Richard Sturgeon's Story



A is for Alan

L is for Loved

A is for Angel

N never to be forgotton




9th December 2005

Today we found out we were expecting you. Daddy was ironing his shirt, whilst I done the test, we never expected a postive, but it was there those two extra special lines.

I telephoned the doctor's and got an appointment for that morning. When I told Dr Baker,he picked me up and spun me around, he was as excitied as we where!!!

8th Febuary 2006

Our first scan.

Today was the first time we saw you, me, daddy and Rachael. Do you remember son, the way you waved and when Daddy spoke you turned your bum on him!!!! You were a little minx even then. The way we all laughed at you, and Daddy had a cob on!!! That's my boy! You were 13 weeks 2 days old.

22nd March 2006

Our 20 week scan.

My how you had grown.

Me and Daddy had both agreed that we weren't going to ask if you were a girl or a boy.
Rachael came with us. You didn't want to play with us, did you? You buried yourself right down low and turned your back on us!!! We were all trying to coax you to turn round. We were all laughing saying how camera shy you were, and as if to say to us 'sod you's' you tuurned over and opened your legs. It was hard not to see you were our little boy. We never said anything to all the family you were our surprise to them.

22nd March-26th July 2006

I had a really good pregnancy, just the usual morning sickness, backache, that sort of stuff. You kicked me constantly, usually at night!!!! Kept me awake!!!!

26th July 2006

You had moved all day, kicking, moving giving me heartburn!!! I couldn't leave the house without my Gaviscon!!!

It was a beautiful sunny day, Auntie Gill and Julie came around and we spent time in the garden, Rambo was playing with Daddy, (God that dog, the mischief it got up to).

Auntie Gill and Julie left at 9.45 and Daddy went to bed. We were sat in the conservertory me, you and Rambo, I decided to get a shower, I don't know why, but I think I knew I was going to go into hospital that night, call it mother's insintict.

When I got out of the shower you were doing your usual aerobics, you kicked right up until 10.50.

At 11.00 i felt a pain, then again 15 mins later. I went upstairs and woke Dadddy, I thought I was in labour.

I've never saw Daddy move so fast!!!!

He went to get ready, by time he came back, the pains where constant.
Daddy telephoned an ambulance.

When the ambulance came, they must have wondered what they had walked into, I was on the bed rolling and Daddy was all a fluster!!

When we got to Liverpool womens we were taken to the Princess Diana suite. A young midwife came in with the sonaid and placed it on my bump.

I heard nothing.

You were an angel. XX

The midwife kept on saying that the sonaid was broken, but I didn't believe her. Then I thought 'no I only heard your heartbeat on Monday and you had been kicking all day, so yes you are ok.

A doctor came to scan me, even at this point I believed he would find your heartbeat. He was really nice.

He scanned and scanned me. After a while he put down the scanner and said ' I'm sorry, your baby has passed away'.

Daddy started to cry.

I was taken to the delivery room and the doctor started to induce me, I wasn't in labour as I thought. They kept on giving me dia-morphine, so all I could do was drift in and out of sleep. Daddy stayed with me all the way, 22 hours, to this day I can't really remember much about your labour/birth, maybe its because of the medication, the pre-esclampsia or maybe I have blocked your birth out, I really don't know, all I know is I never ever expected you to be an angel. Daddy was amazing he was my ROCK, still is.

28th July 2006

Your Birthday

Alan Richard Sturgeon you were born today, at 2.30 a.m. You weighed 5lb 13oz's with your jet black curly hair, the famous Robbo nut nose and your eyelashes that any woman would pay for.

You were about a foot long, you would have been so tall, like your Uncle Richard, all the nurses called you Peter Crouch!!

You stayed with me and Daddy, laying next to us, those very special that will never leave our heart's. You were perfect. So handsome, so pure. I really thought that you would breathe, I even thought at the nurse 'shh you will wake the baby' when she closed the bin.

I never cried, don't know why, didn't want to believe that my son, was born sleeping.

You stayed with us till late on Saturday, both Nanny Janet & Nanny Ellen, Grandad Richard & Grandad Alan came to see you. It broke my heart seeing them hold you, kiss you knowing that this was our only time with you. Those very precious hours, you never left our sides.

When it was time for you to go, it broke my heart watching the midwives taking you, I had a pain in my chest, it was my love for you babe. I hadn't held you at this point, I was scared, scared that I would hurt you, you looked so peaceful, just like you were sleeping, well you was babe, you are sleeping with the angels. I finally held you on the Monday, Nanny & Grandad were with me, you were in your little crib, laying with Bettsie, Grandad picked you up and passed you to me. I held onto with all my life, I didn't want to let you go, selfish I know babe, you were mine, I wanted you sooo much, I love you with all my heart and if I could give anything to have you I would, you know that.

10th August 2006

Your due date and funeral.

We laid you to rest son, let you go to sleep, We'll never forget you son, you'll always be our's to keep.

Alan was stillborn, still born as our son, still born into our family, we are a unit that no-one can ever break, and most importantly Alan was still born to be loved.

Alan is greatly missed by all his family

Alan is the much loved son of Jane Robinson & Alan Sturgeon
Grandparents Ellen & Alan Sturgeon, Janet & Richard Robinson
Brother to Karl, Claire & Rachael Sturgeon
Angel Uncle To Eve Bates
Nephew to Richard Robinson, Lisa McGee, Gillian & Paul Harlock, Bryan Sturgeon & Sam Johnson
Angel Cousin to Freya White, Georgia, Layla & India Sturgeon, Laura & Paul Harlock, Peter White & Lisa Robinson.

Our baby boy too pure and precious for this earth

A little flower lent not given, to bud on earth and bloom in heaven.




Alan Richard Sturgeon came to us, touched our hearts, because of Alan, we will never be apart.

Love you with all our hearts.
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Try To Understand

Last night while I was trying to sleep,
My son's voice I did hear
I opened my eyes and looked around,
But he did not appear.

He said:"Mom you've got to listen,
You've got to understand
God didn't take me from you, mom
He only took my hand.

When I called out in pain that night,
The instant that I died,
He reached down and took my hand,
And pulled me to His side.

He pulled me up and saved me
From the misery and pain.
My body was hurt so badly inside,
I could never be the same.

My search is really over now,
I've found happiness within,
All the answers to my empty dreams
And all that might have been.

I love you all and miss you so,
And I'll always be nearby.
My body's gone forever,
But my spirit will never die!

And so, you must all go on now,
Live one day at a time.
Just understand-
God did not take me from you,
He only took my hand


OUR LITTLE ANGEL

There's got to be a reason
Why God does what he does,
We remember thinking,
Why did he pick on us.

We were bitter, we were angry
When he called your name,
Even though sometime has passed
We'll never be the same.

Why couldn't He have waited
That was our first thought,
You were still so very young
Our time with you so short.

He must have needed an angel
And we've got to understand,
That's why Jesus came down
And took your tiny hand.

Taken from a card designed by Alan Guest & Rob Brown


Mummy


I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother
And I know I heard him say.

A Mother has a baby
This we know is true.'
But God, can you be a Mother
When your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can, He replied
With confidence in His voice
I give many women babies
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime
And others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this, God
I want my baby here
He took a breath and cleared His throat
And then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say:

"We go to earth to learn our lessons
Of love and life and fear.
My Mummy loved me oh so much
I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom
Who had so much love for me
I learned my lesson very quickly
My Mummy set me free.

I miss my Mummy oh so much
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear.
"Mummy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I'm here."

So you see my dear sweet one
Your child are ok
Your baby is here in My home
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lesson is through.
And on the day that you come home
They'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.

Though some on earth may not realize
You are a Mother until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
And you know you're the best one!